You found us! Very Good!
However, it is very difficult to get to know you and understand what is going on for you without more information. I encourage you to complete your Profile page. You can update it at any time if something changes for you.
It is also a great idea to connect with the community. Does the clinic you mentioned do support groups or social gatherings for trans people? Many fine it to be a source of comfort to be among other trans folks. It reminds us know that we are not alone.