Reply To: What age did you know you were transgender?

October 24, 2022 at 6:57 am #133673

I grew up in an Italian Catholic family, third of four children and only son. I had two older sisters, seven and eight years older and one sister five years younger. I became very curious about why I was different when I was six and one half years old. At that time my next oldest sister began to reject me physically by pushing me away when I wanted to be close to her. She was then thirteen and my other sister was fourteen. By the time I was nine I had been moved to the other end of the house, away from everyone else. When I was ten I had my first urge to crossdress. I was compelled to search in the bathroom hamper for something feminine to wear and found a pair of stockings and excitedly put them on. I was transformed then and there. I continued taking stockings from the hamper and would wear them to bed at night. I even tried to wear them to school under my Catholic school uniform but my mother caught me and made me take them off before I got out the door. I was in fourth grade. I don’t recall that she was angry. She didn’t say anything else or tell me not to do it and didn’t tell my father as far as I know. I think she felt the best thing to do was not confront me about it or bring any further attention to my behavior. She was sympathetic to the point that I continued to find stockings in the hamper just as before for me to wear. I was what I was at ten years old and no one could bear to deal with it at the time. I continued until I was thirteen to wear stockings. I didn’t have any interest to wear any other feminine clothing until I was in my mid twenties and encountered my first transvestite in New Orleans. She was a bartender at a place near where I lived. I was in shock when I first saw her and recognized her as someone like me. A few years later I considered becoming a transvestite bartender myself. I even went to a bar that I thought might be into that to check it out. I was wearing stockings and panties underneath but I never went any further than that. I was twenty eight at the time.