Perhaps by reading posts and joining chats you’ll learn some things for your situation.
Do you live in the states or elsewhere?
I’m much older than you and just couldn’t hide my true self any longer, and therefore starting about 2020 I mindfully, that is doing things that made sense to help me along without setting off dynamite in my wake to try to hurt others, started moving forward revealing and living who I am.
I had commitments, commitments I had made and was not forced to make, for many years, those being marriage and children. When the kids were making it on their own and I retired, I must have been somehow magically freed, to some extent. I say to some extent because my attempt has been not to hurt loved ones because of my desire to present the girl which resides inside. Despite my attempt not to cause problems for family and even myself, difficulties still happen.
A lot of what I said may sound somewhat unclear. I hope it wasn’t. Could luck and feel free to stay in touch.