Good questions Rachel.
I’m not comfortable saying what I took, especially here for precisely the medical/ safety reasons you mention; I will say, and I hope everyone gets a hoot out of this; I formulated the “prescription” from the back pages of trans porn magazines.
As to why I chose this path, it’s something I haven’t been yet able to communicate; I have a house here and plan to stay here and to have chosen to go the normal route would NEVER have been allowed here; I’ve seen gay who were too out have to move away. To put it another way, I snuck it and hoped I survived; fairly good local connections helped. I always point out ’76 movie Ode to Billy Joe as the way things are here still; that was about gay but…
I think it’s impossible for people to imagine who live in other places.
I’ve lived in NJ and Milwaukee and know that attitude is completely different there.
Thanks for listening! Thanks for taking an interest.