My wife asked me the subject question over the weekend. I said “no” without thinking. But the answer is far more complicated and “sometimes” would have probably been a better answer.
I’ve never been a manly man. I’ve always fit in better with girls/women. The conversations, the mannerisms, the behaviors have always just felt more natural.
I have memories back to before 4th grade of not liking my man parts, but those feelings come and go over the years. I crossdress frequently wearing bras and panties most days even under my male clothing, but certainly never “passable”. I always say if I have a choice I’m going to come back in my next life as a woman.
When I’m out and about or watching TV I frequently find myself thinking “cute outfit” or “I wish I could wear that”. Speaking of watching TV, I tend to prefer typically “feminine” shows and movies.
Were it not for my wife I would probably further pursue the question of whether I want to or could transition.
Such a simple question from my wife and such a roller coaster of thoughts and feelings behind the answer. The immediate “no” was more of a “I don’t want to talk about this right now” than a real “no way”.
Sorry for the long diatribe for my first post. It just flowed out.
It took me a while to understand my own feelings once I started crossdressing. I got to the point where I realized that I wanted to be female and dress female all the time. So, I started the process of preparing myself to undertake HRT treatment for transitioning. I see a doctor and a therapist both of whom helped me clarify my emotions and apparent need to transition.
Once I was diagnosed with gender Dyson iris I made the decision to do it. Will see about hormones next month. Love, Alura.
