It took a while for me to understand and longercto accept that I had a female alter ego that was pushing hard to come out in the open.
Nothing to be afraid of–better to just tune in and listen to her!
Over time I yielded a bit at a time. You have the power and choice to surpress your hidden side or accept and welcome it. I learned that accepting her opens the way to a new kind of living and experiencing life. I have a wman eithin, and she is me. The me I now yearn to express openly,which is why Im looking forward to eventual transition. Crossdressing led to wanting to be female full time. Its a choice my friend, one made over time and familiarity. I reccommend a good therapist with a background dealing with these kinds of things. And lossibly a doctor who can help also. Dont think youre crazy or weird its a real issue bdtter confronted than buried. I wish you well! Hugs, Aulura Solo