Jayde… I know, I know. (Hug) I would send virtual tissues if I could. I know as I have/am there. I did the same about 12 years ago for the sake of family and kids, many of us have, you are not alone. It wont be easy, it will be touch and go, and your nature will rear it’s head back from time to time as it is you. And your SO will get pissed, angry, upset, sad, etc. more then you can imagine. You will as well. Expect many tears. And It wont be easy, relationships/marriage never are. Love is a powerful thing and will make us do crazy things in it’s name. And It is an amazing thing that you love your family so much you are willing to sacrifice yourself for them. Hang in there, and remember your SO is in just as much pain as you, she is also making just as much sacrifice as you are.