I’m Lir, nice to meet you! I thought I’d add in my story. I am FTM and am awaiting my first visit with a gender therapist but, when I was little I never considered myself female or feminine. I usually was friends with boys and didn’t get along with many girls. I didn’t like most of the games that the girls at school played and I would be climbing trees and trucks or rolling in mud (my mother often was upset with how dirty my clothes and hair got). When I learned about transgender I often wondered if I was but, didn’t want to accept it because I was worried that would make me a gay boy. When I was 20 I decided to ask my friends and family what they would do if I was (hypothetically) trans. They said that they would support me but, I shouldn’t do anything if I wasn’t going to be happy with the results because after a point the changes would be permanent. I decided to take some time again because I wasn’t entirely sure and I needed more information. Last year I talked to my family and GP and now I’m just waiting to see the therapist.
Let me know if you have any questions.