DeeAnn, thanks so much for you’re reply. I’m just getting to this as I was gone over the holiday weekend.
I can tell by your comments that we can relate. I never feel completely male or female; and it really is a barrier for me in my life. The most it gets is like 80/20 one way or the other. Like you, I really want to be female as much as possible. I feel good inside when I’m feminine. I feel depressive as a male; and that part sucks. I really don’t mind being a male; but the depressive feeling I get from it is the worst. I know I really need to find a therapist for this; but I just wish I could find a way to be happy when I’m a man. Without a doubt, I’ve suffered many failures as a man; and it’s taken a toll on my life and happiness. I really wish I would have accepted my feminine side at an earlier age. That was my mistake..trying to be something I wasn’t for many many years.
Seems like therapy needs to be my next step.
Thanks again for the comments.