Jill, you are so right. It seems like every day can be a different persona sometimes. The roller coaster ride can be very taxing on my mind. I really need to pull the trigger, throw caution to the wind, and present myself as who I am, when I am. Lots of fear involved in that; but I suppose that’s why I should see therapy to help guide me through it.
As I mentioned to my friend Kathy, I feel there’s a misconception in society that being trans is the same as being “gay”. I don’t consider myself gay; but the fear is that by coming out as trans, it gives people the perception that I’m gay…not that there’s anything wrong with that (for the Seinfeld fans, lol). I think a big part of the fear associated with coming out is asking the hard questions, and being honest with myself in the answers that I have. How other people view me is one thing. How I view myself can be terrifying.
Thanks again for your comment. I really appreciate it.
A. Marie
