Hey Marge. Thanks so much for your comments. It’s interesting that you’re intersex. You’re the second intersex person I’ve met recently. I didn’t know anything about it before; so I find it a bit fascinating.
Yes, it does feel a bit like twins. My problem is they don’t always get along well with each other. That’s how I ended up being more asexual. Neither side really wants to cooperate when it comes to sex.
It’s an interesting analogy comparing your other side to an old job. I can’t say I’m there yet. In my current state of mind, I want to be all woman. What sucks is when I drop into a deep depression when I’m not feeling very womanly. Sometimes I think if I just got dressed and put on my makeup that I would come out of it; but sometimes it’s so hard to find the energy. That’s the depression side of it. I want to; but it’s just not there. That’s when it really sucks. I feel great inside when I’m a woman. I always smile; and I’m just so happy. It can be such a dark shadow inside when I’m feeling very male. It’s amazing how people will react to you depending on the personality being presented. People are much more social with me when I’m feminine. They stay away when I’m masculine.
I haven’t “come out” yet, and maybe that too is a condition of my depression. This is all stuff I need to examine more closely. I hope there’s an answer somewhere.