Lauren
oh darling, if I could I’d wrap you in a hug, n say things hoping to comfort you. I know you wanted to know n feel cheated n lied to or I’d guess you do, and on some level I think you’re right.
I’ve always felt different with unusual thoughts I suspect other cis males did not have, n at times wonder if I’d acted much earlier..maybe, but then like that old Jimmy Stewart movie maybe you’ve done some pretty important things as AMAB so, would you erase them all? I guess that’s what you ponder at 315 am ..
does a dignosis like that make you feel..more sure or vindicated somehow?I know in my doubtfilled times I sometimes wonder if I’m pushing the issue as I’ve been told by my hating family..but a medical find..I might find oddly supportive of my feelings n obsession to live not as I was assigned at birth.
I’m sorry baby..we still love n treasure you just like you are
I wish you best dear
hugs
