Glad that you found us!
Do you have any access to therapy services? If possible, it is a very good thing to do. It can be very difficult for us to work through our gender issues on our own. Our minds will work to shield us from stressful situations because we tend to fear the unknown. However, a therapist who is experienced in working with patients who have gender issues is what is needed. Not all therapists have this background.
One of the things that makes understanding gender issues difficult is that society tells us that if we are born male, that’s what we are. If we are born female, that’s what we are. However, it isn’t that simple. For whatever reason, some of us come into the world with a different perspective. We don’t “become”. We “are”.
Anyway, count us as friends, allies and fellow travelers.