Sadly, there isn’t much that we can do at this distance. Precious few of us have backgrounds in psychology or psychiatry anyway. But, you are not the first and painfully you won’t be the last to have these feelings in our community. Anyway, I did a search and it turned up some possibilities for help.
The search string was:
barbados transgender suicide prevention hot line
What looked potentially useful are, but please do further searching:
https://www.therapyroute.com/article/suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-in-barbados
