Since a very young age, I have known that there was something very different about me. As time went on, I developed feelings that I was much more female than male. Unfortunately, due to the time and environment that I grew up in, my feelings were repressed. This had profound effects on me as I have been relatively withdrawn, had a hard time maintaining friendships and in general, didn’t achieve my full potential. I have been a crossdresser as long as I can remember and I can now see that this was my response to the dysphoria that I felt by forcing myself into male roles.
Now as times have changed and I have felt freer to express my authentic self. I got help from a psychiatrist, and explored my feelings and ultimately came to some degree of peace with who I really am. Now I have come to the realization that I am more than a crossdresser, I am actually a woman! While I have lost a lot of time, I am now trying hard to make up for this loss by moving myself in the right direction.