I completely agree with the advice of see a gender therapist. I can tell you for my personal experience that is the only one person can help you and guide you to know who you really are. As I read many of the answers as your own post too, I saw some experiences that I share, like the horrible feeling of was a “pervert”; but others I didn’t share, as early childhood knolewdge of “being a girl trapped inside a boy’s body”. The real problem in gender, is it is so diverse that everyone is a world in self so you are the only one who can answer the question you made.
Best luck on your journey