Hello May, welcome to TGH. I have been going through the same thoughts very the past few months. The lockdown has meant a LOT of time self reflecting and researching. There’s a load of knowledgeable helpful friendly folks here; I also found some really useful advice on YouTube. Since I started questioning my gender I’ve also been talking to a therapist over zoom.
I hope you’re able to navigate this difficult time. DM me if u need to chat.