I can only tell my story, maybe it will help. I came out to my wife as a lifelong closet CD in March, just as lockdown began. There then followed 4 months of self analysis, then weekly zoom counselling with a gender therapist in the U.K., alongside a 💩 load of reading, watching YouTube videos, and asking questions on CDH before ‘graduating’ to TGH. All I can say is that so many stories mirrored my own experience and feelings. I have been constantly doubting myself, wondering if the emotional stress of lockdown, the freedom of having told my wife or some kind of breakdown was making me think I was transgender. But, I’m now quite sure, and I have an appointment at a specialist klinik in a few weeks.
I found ‘the gender channel’ ‘Dara Hoffman fox’ and ‘dr Z‘ all helpful, but there’s loads of others too.
good luck and dm me if I can be of any more help.