Thank you for sharing this
i struggle with depression too, and I feel like you do, some days are just harder than others
I always remember the advice given to us by flight attendants, that in order to help others, you have to help yourself first. When the masks drop down, put your mask on first, then assist others. Whenever I struggle to allow myself time for self care, I remind myself of that, and take the time to put my mask on first. Maybe that can help you too.