Hi Celastazia! You are not alone. OK… I want to be a woman, but can feel and know that you are feeling something wrong inside. Opposite journeys, but a similar feeling in the end.
What significance a month makes, I have no idea, save that your mother may well feel confused. If ever you need to talk, even though I am on a different journey I am happy to listen. I have survived in ‘male drag’ for many decades, so may or may not have some answers for you, but am willing to give a sympathetic ear.
Wish you all the best and hope you feel comfortable in yourself!