Hello Carly, I think that how you described yourself would be characteristic of all of us. If we had good friends we would have to expose ourselves and most of us older trans girls have learned very well how to be cautious and survive.
Everyday that I live as a female I rejoice in my life of how good it is. A lot of women have issues with society and how women get paid less for the same job and find it hard to break the glass ceiling. That is good for them but I am just so happy to be able to live as myself . I don’t worry about any of those items.
Sometimes I get emotional and cry when I am sad and other times cry when I am happy. It is so freeing to be able to be a female and be able to cry and know that it is my right and how freeing it is. Society does not allow men to express emotion. What a wonderful life it is as a female.