Welcome to the site. There are a lot of us in this group that will do anything we can to help you on your journey. If you cannot find a topic you are interested in the forum please ask us.
I was very much into the outdoors in my past. I usually preferred to be on my own in the wilderness since I did not want to develop any friends that could learn my secret identity. Now that I am out and transitioning I want to have my friends around me. After we start HRT and we come out we tear down the walls around our heart and soul (not easy to do and not quick) and our true selves come out. And then one day when we are able to live full time and get to be our true selves live becomes much more pleasurable.