You have come to the right place as there is a ton of experience here and I suspect many will empathize with your situation. While my path was different, I will say stay positive and make decisions consciously. That way allows us to retain as much control over things as we can. When we lose control and get swept along by events that are not of our making, it can be difficult to get back to some degree of stability.
Also, please fill in more of your Profile. It’s is the beginning of others understanding where things are currently for you and a bit of a look to the future.
There are also a number of people here from the UK, and from all over the world actually, so I think you will feel right at home.