Hello Terri. If you read my profile you will see that my parents sent me to conversion therapy when I was 5 years old. That did not cure me but it did push me deep into the closet and make me deathly afraid of getting caught dressing. Then having spent a career in a very homophobic and transphobic military I was 60 before I started my transition.
All this resulted in a lot of depression through the years and thoughts of suicide the last 5 years before I transitioned.