Good to have you!
What our actual gender identity is can be a difficult thing to sort out. Our minds will tend to go for the path of least resistance. For us, that means maintaining the status quo. In other words, no change. However, that doesn’t solve the fundamental issue of what out gender identity is. If we are truly transgender, it is likely that there will be some major changes in our lives going forward. A therapist who is versed in gender issues can be a big help in this process as it can be very difficult to do this on your own.
Anyway, I hope that your time here will be helpful. Also, I encourage you to finish your Profile page as it will help others understand where you are in your journey.