Just want to share some thoughts of how I feel now. Since coming back here and finally meeting with a therapist yesterday, so many more childhood memories of feelings of wanting to be a girl have become more obvious. Memories of mostsly wanting to play with girls and girl toys. So many memory flashes that I ignored or was passive about. Even as entering my teenage years I went through a time of wanting to grow my hair. At the time I just thought I wanted a different look. Times also I would tuck my private area between my legs and wish i looked like a girl down there.
I always read people say “they just knew they were in the wrong body”. Until the last couple weeks I never really understood it fully. But now I do because that’s how I feel.
Its so amazing how your mind changes. When I look at girls now, it’s changed from being sexually attracted to them to being I want to be them in the physical manner.
anyways sorry for the long post just wanted to share my feelings.