Reply To: Back from a break

[Diana W]

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That is a perfect analogy.  And I can identify with it.  My desire to be female is always there in the background.  These days at no time do I feel masculine.  It’s just not there.  Right now I’m firmly in the closet.  At home I can live and dress as a woman and my wife is now comfortable with it.  Often this seems to be enough.  But then I have these episodes of intense depression and frustration and just wanting to practically climb out of my own body.  At those times the tide is well and truly in.  At the moment, while I can dress female and wear makeup around my wife, transitioning is off the table if I don’t want to trash my marriage.  And I really don’t.  The problem is the tide is coming in more frequently these days.