I can never be attracted to whom I am now, physically! I am absolutely head over heels in love with the woman I am going to become.
I cringe at my own reflection! When I venture into public I can see the sideways glances, I remind myself that I can’t feel how they are feeling and I can’t see what they are thinking. Even still, when I get home and look into the mirror,…………… I’M JUST SIMPLY APPALLD AT WHAT I SEE!
THIS ISN’T ME!
I would like to add that I have a very fit, attractive body, I do have a pretty face with KILLER eyes. (Toot toot).
The reason I can’t except my body is because of the image of “a man” when I was leaning what that was, was a very, very bad image to me and it’s sickening knowing how men treated women. This I was seeing as I was just learning that life was bigger than me.
Now, I do love myself for who I am, I am ashamed of who I think other people see me as.