Hi! I am new here. My parents used shame as a parenting tool. My father like to say “shame on you …” when we made a mistake. One of my friends gave me a pair of girls panties when I was a teenager. I was careless and my mother found them and shamed me. As an adult, I crossdressed a few times and purged while feeling guilt and shame. Now I do most of my shopping online, so I feel no shame. I have bought makeup while shopping for groceries and just buy it with all the food items. No shame there. I was at a store and trying to see if their fitting rooms were open as I wanted to buy a pair of women’s blue jeans and try them on. As I walked past the fitting rooms, my adrenaline kicked in and I felt my anxiety rising. The fitting rooms were close due to Covid, but I felt some guilt, shame and nervousness all mixed together.