I am new here. I felt so sad when I was reading your story. I am happy to hear that you got some help and feel better. You deserve to feel better, you are a beautiful person.
I was raised in a family with my father and brothers having toxic masculinity. I was quiet, sensitive and felt feminine, but had to repress that to survive in our house. I have some male friends, but I cannot connect with them and I can’t trust males with my feelings.
It is nice to meet you and hope to see you around on the website.