Oh honey go see a therapist!!! Before you do anything else. I’ve repressed for many years and just this year the dam blew down. That Sam took with it my fiance and my self security. I was secure that I could change l channel her into another part of my being away from the outside.
When the wall comes down we feel so many emotions it’s so hard to tell what is real and what is just a part of the pink wave hitting you. A therapist is critical in helping you sift through this and find your true feelings.
For me I’m seeing a therapist and it’s expensive, I’d rather spend that money on my transition, but I know that he is critical in keeping me from doing something I can’t umdo when the wave subsides. Get a therapist!!!!
On the pink side omg I can’t believe how much I want to try new looks as a woman. As a guy I do one thing pants and a t-shirt. The only dress thing I own is my military dress uniform. As a girl I’m in everything I can get my hands on, and yes I love pink. I don’t know why, as a man I hate it. As a girl I kind of want nothing else, still hate yellow though that hasn’t changedππππ
Biotin line go get what is you don’t let anyone stop that. Tell people tell people you trust tell tell tell tell. It hurt telling my fiance and watching us slowing fall apart. I told two close friends and they support me. The feeling across the board is freeing no matter the hurt. Don’t do this alone, involve your family my next person on my list is my sister, she will be the first blood to know. It’s going to hurt and I’ll be drunk… Lol, but it’ll feel better in the end.
Love who you are and who you are is beautiful no matter what you skin looks like π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€π€ππ€ππππ―π―πππππ―