That you find therapy somewhat difficult to do likely helps others realize that the process isn’t easy, but it works better with the more you can reveal. One thing that I have noticed is that we all bring bits of the puzzle. I think learning about how we struggle is as instructive as how we succeed.
My guess is that as we become more and more comfortable about our true gender identity, we become less likely to spend time thinking about it. Do you think this is how it works?