Sounds a bit like that Peggy Lee song: “Is That All There Is?”.
I think everyone’s story is different to some extent. It wouldn’t surprise me that there is euphoria at one end of the spectrum, quiet relief at the other and everything in between. Anyway, I think the number of people who permanently detransition is pretty small, but some may revert temporarily for some specific reasons and then continue on their previous path later.
There is a guy that conservatives like to bring up as someone who detransitioned. However he admits that he lied to his therapists so that they would approve his transition in the first place. That isn’t a failure of the system. That is the result of someone who blatantly and convincingly lied.
Anyway, nothing is perfect, but it behooves us to be as straightforward with our therapists as we can…