Your story hits home; so close to my own it’s scary. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate reading your story thank you for sharing.
I to recently started going out as me and after my first time I was so over taken with sadness that I couldn’t function the following day, the second time I got out of the house but very depressed. I was so sad to have the experience end and to be back in the self that doesn’t fit right.
I to did small things with my niece growing up and my parents had to break us up.
I do wish I was like you and could just switch back and forth without any sort it transition formal but that’s just not in my cards. I’ve now been on hrt for 3 weeks and started hair removal. I’ve never felt so at peace internally. It’s only three weeks but I can feel slight differences in my emotional responses to things. I feel like I’m not acting internally as much anymore and it’s amazing.
Stay in touch and good luck with your road🤗🤗🤗🤗