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Hello Beautiful people,
I’m Jacqu. I have another name, it’s not dead to me it’s just the past. It feels weird when people from my past use Jacqu and people from after my awakening use Jacqu. I describe myself as Gender Fluid and Pansexual. What does that mean? Buggered if I know, I guess it just means that Sometimes I feel feminine sometimes masculine mostly somewhere in between ranging from “Prince” to “Harry Styles”. Mostly it means I’m not going to be defined by my wobbly bits.
Sometimes I feel like a “Fake trans” I’m not sure if that’s a concept but if it is I’d rather not know. Up until now my Journey has occurred on a site called Fetlife, a site dedicated to BDSM and other fetishes. The people there are beautiful and accepting but given the nature of the site they are, not surprisingly sex and fetish driven and there’s just a tad too many genitalia flying around. So I’ve come here searching for the more day to day world of…gender exploration…?…I guess that’s what it is.
My awakening started at the start of November 2020 and it was like a tidal wave of revelation. After about 2 weeks I came out to some old friends, then my family and some trusted and loved work colleagues. Last week I went shopping dressed in the outfit on my profile picture. Everywhere I go I have beautiful positive experiences but I’m aware that I’m being selective. I’m a teacher in a very small, very conservative town and some of the parents will require some gentle nudging. I have 6 years before my kids grow up and I can move back to Melbourne, so 6 years to transition this community. (Thanks for how ever it was in chat that framed it like that.)
Hmmm what else?
As a male I pretty much had a bar of soap, some head and shoulders shampoo and clippers from my hair. So I have so, so much to learn. In two weeks I have an appointment with a specialist trans makeup artist and boy does she have her work cut out for her. 😛 That’s OK though, it’s all a journey and as long as I can laugh at myself I’ll be OK.
As you may have guessed I’m pretty open so if you have any questions fire away.
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