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Recently started transitioning MTF and my anxiety is up quite a bit. I feel like maybe I’m a fraud…just a male who’s wrong about being transgender. Even though I know I am. My entire childhood my parents negated my wants and preferences. I’m… was always meet with “no your not.” So, as an adult I have their voice in my head telling me I’m a fraud if I say I’m anything. I’ve published 2 novels and still don’t truly see myself as an author. So, can transition just be something you want and overwhelming enough to cause anxiety at first? Like, all this new stuff and getting rid of the old way of doing things and getting used to the new way. Stepping out of your comfort zone to never return but instead create a new…better…comfort zone? And is it normal to miss some things you’re changing for a time? I miss saying “C’mon man…” to myself when I do something stupid. I love saying “Girl!” instead…love it, love it, love it.. but I’m not used to it yet. So, I guess the anxiety is related to being outside my comfort zone and the lack of comfort making me feel…at least right now…a fraud since we use comfort as a barometer for knowing who we are. So, is any of this a normal transitioning experience?
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