Emotional Tolls

This topic contains 7 replies, has 5 voices, and was last updated by  Danielle Fox 1 hour, 17 minutes ago.

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  • #848

    Johna Melius
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    Hi everone.  I have found that once I had accepted Myself.  It allowed me to be able to feel and now I am learning to be woman that has been fighting to get out.  Crying at a movie, allowing life to pluck your heartstrings.  Just accepting myself was a big thing and then having friends see the new me and not wanting her to go away because they see me now.  My wife is struggling with it, but we don’t want to loose each other.  I now have my nails sone, my toes are painted I wear women’s pants, panties, cami’s and make up almost every day and I get to carry a purse.  It’s almost heaven.  Sorry what girl. Doesn’t start to ramble. ,  toodles for now Johna

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     Danielle Fox 
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    Good morning all the lucky ladies that have survived the emotional feelings I know that it is not easy to not be able to live the life that is not me. I remember the first time I let my wife know that I wanted to live a female life when I could I bought some clothes and wore panties everyday and I felt great she even said she could tell I was happier then one day I was told that I had to give up my happiness because she was so embarrassed with me so I had to give up my great panties first then my beautiful wigs and clothes and now I cry everyday about because my female happyness is gone. She even took away my Ultra MasterCard because they sell makeup and perfume. Sorry to cry on your shoulders but it hurts me so bad I am crying now. Love to all of you

    Oh Jamie dear you have many shoulders to cry upon and I too had this happen to me. My current wife who is accepting and supportive had a different take on who I

    • #19957
       Danielle Fox 
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      Sorry I hit submit by accident. To continue; my wife, who I had come out to before we were married, had a different take on me and my wardrobe and accessories one day a few months after we were married. So I purged and didn’t buy anything else for the next 6 1/2 years. Then I had an epiphany and finally figured out what was wrong with me. Nothing! I realized that I am female trapped inside a male body. I then had another coming out with my wife. I wanted to discuss the future of Danielle💋👠. She was so afraid of what I wanted to talk about. Rightly so because this time I wasn’t talking about just being a crossdresser but about being who I am. Before our talk I located some very well written articles by psychiatrists and medical professionals plus a couple y gender counselors and emailed them to her. Even though she didn’t read them before our talk she did a few days later. Our initial talk about Danielle was a disaster. I handled it totally wrong. The next day we talked a bit more and I stressed that I am not two different sides of one person I am me! Male and female so I am the same man she married. This caused her to do some serious thinking and read the articles. She then had a better understanding of who I am.

      I tell you this to inspire you to have a talk about the future of Jamie. Locate articles and let her read them, do not get flustered or upset with her during your first attempt at talking about your future. Give her time and space to think it through. If she accepts you for who you are as the man she married then she accepts you for who you are inside. You haven’t changed you have figured out who you truly are inside. Mind, heart and soul you are female!

      I do hope this helps you hun! Love ❤️ and hugs 🤗
      Danielle 💋👠

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     Jamiealso 
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    Good morning all the lucky ladies that have survived the emotional feelings I know that it is not easy to not be able to live the life that is not me. I remember the first time I let my wife know that I wanted to live a female life when I could I bought some clothes and wore panties everyday and I felt great she even said she could tell I was happier then one day I was told that I had to give up my happiness because she was so embarrassed with me so I had to give up my great panties first then my beautiful wigs and clothes and now I cry everyday about because my female happyness is gone. She even took away my Ultra MasterCard because they sell makeup and perfume. Sorry to cry on your shoulders but it hurts me so bad I am crying now. Love to all of you

     

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       Cloe (CC) Webb 
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      Jamie, it hurts yo see your pain.  We are not meant to live a life in that state.  I try not to push people in any direction, but I know the torment you describe and the best advice I ever got was to seek a counselor.   You may find a simple answer or you may find a journey of discovery and change or something else.  But what you won’t find is more suppression.  I truly hope you can find a happier place then you are now.

      Hugs, Cloe

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  • #13617
     Danielle Fox 
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    Hi Johna,

    I too have accepted who I truly am and have my wife supporting me too. Once I decided I want to be who I am inside it was like the sun shone through the clouds and the angels sang! My heart feels lighter and my stress has lowered tremendously. Now if I could only click my heels and change into who I am I would die a happy woman…..in 30 years or so, lol! Oh do keep rambling because if you are happy it just flows and everyone knows. TTFN

    Danielle

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  • #2101
     Cloe (CC) Webb 
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    Keep rambling Johna!  I’m loving living it full time and sometimes I just keep going too.

    Hugs, Cloe!

  • #850
     Dame Veronica Graunwolf 
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    Hi Johna….pleased to meet you. Yes….it is is quite a change to become femme. We have the emotional baggage from our malehood and the repressed emotions of a female. The change can be earth shattering. I was a male for many years and just got tired of it all. I am much happier as a female (too old to undergo transition now) but I know many people who have and most of them are glad of the change. As for your wife…..I do suggest that she read some of the literature and books found on Amazon Kindle e-book site. Knowledge of the subject and personal stories and feelings about it provide much needed info to understand the situation. Love and partnership has no effect on what the body looks like….it is a mental thing….if I love somebody it does not matter whether their body is male/female/scarred/broken and what not….it is their mind and being that I want.

    I hope everything works out OK. My door is always open to you sweetie.

    Dame Veronica

    Dame Veronica Graunwolf

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