Hello from Yucca Valley, Ca

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  • #88727
    Marcy Nelson
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    Hello.

    I am Marcy.

    I am a Transwoman from yucca valley.ca I found this site by accident while searching transgender forums.

    This looks like a good site and has some really nice features. But some i will not be able to enjoy as they are upgrade options, which i cannot afford.

    I started my transition in 2014. But after loosing my job, because i had started transition, i found myself homeless and broke. Seems that even being trans up here in a smaller community you cant get any work. If it was not for walmart i would never be able to talk to anyone, they leave their WIFI on 24/7.

    I never thought i would be in this position, no home, no car, no job, no money, no friends up here.

    Anyways.

    I have known since i was 5 years old that i was a girl. For my birthday, i wanted barbie dolls, pretty dresses. And the same holds true for Christmas. Needless to say i never got ay of the things i wanted. I got all kind of toys, (For boys).  And i could not understand why. I asked mom and dad, and got that heart breaking answer. Your a boy, you dont play with girls toys, and you dont wear girls clothes. Well needless to say, i cried myself to sleep that night and most every night since. I would pray that i would wake up in the morning and be a girl, never happened.

    In Jr. High school, the pain only got worse for me, boys started becoming men, and girls started to become women. And here i was, a girls in a body that was not mine, and one i did not even recognize.

    I never knew how to be a boy, how the hell was i going to make it as a man.?, well somehow i managed to make it this long. I tried to push the woman away and hide her, but that never lasted, and month or so would go by and the feelings would come back to the surface.

    I hated life, everyone was saying be yourself, but how can you when you and your body are all wrong.

    In my teens and up to even now, i would have given anything to experience all the things a woman experiences,  the periods, pregnancy, and all the other things. Well here i am 40 years later, and still at odds with myself, and asking and wondering why i did not do any of this earlier, when i truly could enjoy life.

    Well thats my story. Not a very happy one for sure.

    Marcy

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    • #88977
      Marcy Nelson
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      FREE

      Thank you everyone.

    • #88976
      Marcy Nelson
      Participant

      FREE

      Awesome thank you.

    • #88919
      DeeAnn Hopings
      Ambassador

      AMBASSADOR

      Marcy:

      I live in Cathedral City and I want to pass along some organizations that may be able to help:

      Desert Aids Project, Palm Springs
      General Number: 760.323.2118, Social Services: 760.323.2188
      https://www.desertaidsproject.org/
      They started out providing HIV/AIDS treatment about 30 years ago, but have evolved into a full health care center for the LGBT community with medical care, mental health care, dental care and connection to social services.

      Transgender Health and Wellness Center, Cathedral City
      Office: 760.202.4308, Toll Free: 833.944.5433
      https://www.trans.health/
      Since 2017 they have helped trans people navigate the healthcare system, have organized support groups and provided mental health and hair removal services.

      The LGBT Community Center of the Desert, Palm Springs
      General Number: 760.416.7790
      https://www.thecenterps.org/
      They have behavioral health services, a food bank and trans support groups.

      I know people in all 3 organizations and they put a lot of effort into supporting the community…

    • #88847
      Seren
      Participant

      FREE

      Welcome Marcy, sorry to hear that you’re having a 💩 time atm. Hopefully being here will help a little, knowing that there’s such a strong community of girls to chat with. My situation doesn’t compare, but I’ve found these online communities invaluable during the last 6 months of lockdown etc.

      hugs

      Seren xx

    • #88775
      https://transgenderheaven.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/11/woman-b14-2.jpgAnonymous
      Inactive

      Welcome, Marcy.  I wish you all the best.

    • #88730
      Gina Samsom
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      FREE

      <p style=”text-align: left;”>Hi Marcy,  Gina here from La Quinta, just a short way from Yucca Valley.  Welcome to this site.  Hope you’re situation gets better.  It’s hard enough being trans without having a challenging world to live in.  Let me know if you would like to talk.</p>
      Take care, Gina

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    • #88729
      Alesha Smith
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      SILVER

      Hi Marcy, welcome.  I would love to chat.

      Hugs!!

       

      Alesha

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