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<p style=”text-align: center;”>Hi all,</p>
I’m Brittany Ryan at least that’s who I truly am. Although I did dress in my mom lingerie when I was young I always thought it was a phase. During my teen years it would come back and then my stepbrother asked me if I would give him oral sex. He nor anyone else had ever known that what I did. I did what he asked not because he pressured me. Because I wanted to and it became an on going thing until he became interested in a real girl. I felt like I just got dumped. All the time telling myself I wasn’t gay and trying to be straight and feeling ashamed. I was able to block out all my tendencies for a few years until I started using meth in 11th grade. That’s when I started stealing women’s clothes from my Mom and other places. When I used meth I would at first just shave my legs, dress up and masterbate. Then I found out there was a guy in my apartments who was gay and liked me. I went to his house and had sex with him for a few months until he moved. And everytime after I would feel ashamed and suppressed myself even more. I eventually got a girl pregnant and wasn’t going to not be there for my son. Seeing as mine wasn’t there much for me. So for about 14-15 years I was married with kids. I had told my wife a couple of times I wanted to bring in another man to have sex with her. In reality I wanted him to have sex with me. I just didn’t know it yet. I was still trying to deny it. After my divorce I tried being straight but I now have given up trying to suppress who I really want to be. I do have adult children and I’m worried about how they will react. So for now I’m working more on the inside of me. Like accepting who I really am and I have started talking to a therapist who specializes in LGBTQ issues and gender dysphoria. So that’s a little of my story so far. Thank you for reading and please if you have any tips I would love that.
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