I just joined Transgender Heaven a few minutes ago. This is a new experience for me and I find that I am a bit anxious.
In spite of knowing such to be the case from my earliest memories, being transgendered is not something I have ever been really open about. I am a 64 year old woman who has spent her life masquerading as a man. Only my wife, who passed away four years ago, one of my brothers, a dear friend and an on-line therapist have ever known my true self.
My beautiful wife accepted my disclosure…but really struggled to talk about it until she was diagnosed with cancer. At that point, before she died, she told me to “go for it”. My brother accepted my disclosure but never mentioned it again. My dear friend has tried to maintain our relationship, but has become very uncomfortable and distant. And the therapist has been wonderfully supportive and encouraging. It is because of her that I have been able to muster the courage to join Transgender Heaven.
I am hoping to simply be myself here with none of the defenses that have characterized my life. Additionally, I hope to learn and grow. Most of the posts that I have read reveal stories that are much further down the road than I. I honestly don’t know where my journey is headed but find solice in finding that I am not the only one on this path.
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