I am who I am!

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  • #90489
    CatAnne Vos

    Who Am I ?

    I am what my mind tells me I am.

    I am the woman I am and I believe I am just that! Nothing else.

    What am I?

    I am just another human being who wants to be happy and have my piece of sunshine in this world.

    I am wh I am. My eyes speak of happiness since I became me but what lies behind that smile??

    Years of heartache. Years of suffering in silence and of abuse both mental and physical.

    What’s hidden behind a smile? All things lost and gone. A friend gone with just a goodbye. Where does that leave me? a Broken heart, an emptiness, a feeling of being lost in a wilderness. a Feeling of being thrown away like an old used up toy? The feelings of belonging and meaning something lost and the will to go on in life lost for now. What about tomorrow? I have to survive!

    I have to go on and be strong. For what?? Alone in this world and faceless virtual friends that tries their best to motivate and rebuild your broken heart. Faceless in that you can see them on video and you talk to them and you support each other but that’s it.

    Why? I’m asking myself. I have no one to hug, no one that can hug me, no one who can was or take away my tears and tell me it’s going to be okay. No one to hug me and comform me. All alone in this world to fight my emotions all by myself. No one to take my hand and walk with me. Then it comes back to me. I lost my heart, I lost my soul and I’m broken.

    Then I ask myself again, Who Am I?? What am I and where am I going?

    I am a woman with the wrong parts. I am a woman in Mind and spirit and I am alone, going nowhere in particular but I walk into the future, unshure, still a broken heart and all alone!

    I am a transgender woman, newin this world and I have left the old world and the old life behind. My eyes shine with happines but behind that smile lies the pains of a lost friend, of lost family members and a life lost for the better. It’s not easy, but I have to be strong.

    I Am The Woman I Am! I am Ms. Catherine Anne Vos!

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    • #90510
      CatAnne Vos


      Jackie, you are who you are and no one can dispute that.

      Be true to yourself and most important, Believe in yourself!



    • #90509
      Jackie Leslie


      Cat what a wonderful. for years i felt the same way  and i know where your coming from.  specially no one to hug and no one hugging me. till i met Shannon and caroline at the cafe.

      Cat i am Transgender Women

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    • #90499
      DeeAnn Hopings


      It is a case of not choosing the path, but rather having the path choose us. Removing the layers of despair and self doubt and fear and pain allows us to finally reveal who we are…

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