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- July 6, 2019 at 8:16 am #35369
Hi I’m Casey. I am a man and live as a man. Not by choice thou. I have always known I was female inside. Never attracted to women but desired to be the woman I wanted to be. I have always been ashamed of the body I have. Ridiculed in jr high and high school for not being 1 of the guys. I have always hidden my dark deep secrets so no one knows. Severe Depression and anxiety. I have several stories I could share. I am 50 now in good shape and healthy but not living life. I do have a bf that us very supportive of my feelings and who I am. I’m looking for people that are in the same situation as I am that i can chat with. Maybe help me in my path to find happiness and my inner self. And just so u know i have worn high heels,female clothes and makeup behind closed doors. I am very nervous and scared but i know it’s what i want. Thanks for letting me open up here.
- July 7, 2019 at 12:38 am #35382
Hey Cacey, I’m Stephanie. I think most of us are somewhere in grey area, as to being comfortable and accepting of ourselves in a complete way.
Relax, we’re all on the same bus 🙂
Steph xo
- July 7, 2019 at 2:16 am #35383
Hi Casey. You have arrived in a safe place where you can relax and hopefully learn more about yourself. We are all on similar journeys if you will. I arrived here because I was asking alot of questions about my true identity. I wanted to know. Why I have always wanted to be a girl when I was younger and now why is it so important to me to be a woman now at the age of 65. TGH allowed me to explore both those questions and I happy to say I found the answers with the help of the staff and reading the stories of alot of the members. The first thing I learned was I was not alone. That was so big for me. So I will say to you . You are not alone. Nice to meet you. Luv Stephanie
- July 7, 2019 at 2:32 am #35384
Casey I forgot to tell you the dress here is casual Heels are optional. Have a nice time. I know you will Luv Stephanie ❣️
- July 7, 2019 at 7:01 am #35418
Thanks for your sweet caring reply. You all are making me feel so alive. It’s nice to know there are others like me. It gives me hope. I havent really had a chance to to share my inner feelings with anyone. So it is comforting to have girlfriends. Thank you all. Hugs to all.
- July 9, 2019 at 1:44 am #35454
Hi Casey
I’m fairly new to this site too. I too began life as a gay man as I was not attracted to women at all but felt alienated my gay culture. It took me a while to realise that I was in fact transgender and not gay (in those days, the 1970s, transsexual as it was known then) when I went to Germany for a holiday and met some transwomen in Hamburg. That’s when the penny dropped and I finally discovered what, or who, I was. In those days transitioning was difficult and many barriers were put in my way so I resigned myself to being unhappy for the rest of my life as I thought it would be impossible for me to become my true self but a few years ago I decided to research it online and realised I could still make that giant leap to become a new me so I went to see my doctor and got referred to a Gender Identity Clinic. I was put on hormone therapy, which included oestrogen and testosterone suppressants, and had facial hair removal, hair transplant, and now I’ve finally had full Vaginoplasty. I really didn’t think I would get there but at last at the age of 61 I am now a fully functioning attractive heterosexual woman, and now I’m in the summer of my life when only a few years ago all I had to look forward to was old age and death. I know that sounds morbid but that’s seriously how my mindset was in. You may not wish to go that far or even start on a new journey at all but anything can be achieved if you really want it enough. To think that I was so very nervous about going out in public dressed in female clothes and makeup, now I don’t even think twice about it as now it’s as natural as cleaning my teeth or brushing my hair. All the best Casey and DREAM BIG! Julie x
- July 9, 2019 at 3:30 am #35457
<p style=”text-align: center;”>Julie. Thanks for telling me your story. That’s hits real close to home for me. I to suffer deep down inside. Trapped all my life and scared and nervous. But I cant overcome my inner feelings. They won’t diminish no matter how much I try to set them aside they are always there with me. I hurt and struggle constantly wondering if I am gonna die like this TRAPPED! They grow strong each day every year. I don’t have a clue what the correct steps are or the path my life is taken or why all a I know is the is a true woman inside me waiting to come out and SHINE! I have so much running through my head I can’t sleep and I get anxiety from it. For me it’s not body parts it about being able to express myself ( ok the body parts are a huge bonus) and represent myself for who I truly am and what I have always been. I know it’s never going to go away no matter what I tell myself. I don’t want to die this way! I want that that leap too!</p>
Thanks for listening. 🤗 - July 9, 2019 at 3:37 am #35458
Julie. Thanks for telling me your story. That’s hits real close to home for me. I to suffer deep down inside. Trapped all my life and scared and nervous. But I cant overcome my inner feelings. They won’t diminish no matter how much I try to set them aside they are always there with me. I hurt and struggle constantly wondering if I am gonna die like this TRAPPED! They grow strong each day every year. I don’t have a clue what the correct steps are or the path my life is taken or why all a I know is the is a true woman inside me waiting to come out and SHINE! I have so much running through my head I can’t sleep and I get anxiety from it. For me it’s not body parts it about being able to express myself ( ok the body parts are a huge bonus) and represent myself for who I truly am and what I have always been. I know it’s never going to go away no matter what I tell myself. I don’t want to die this way! I want that that leap too!</p><br style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-family: ‘open sans’; font-size: 13px;” />Thanks for listening. 🤗
- July 9, 2019 at 3:57 am #35460
Julie. Thanks for telling me your story. That’s hits real close to home for me. I to suffer deep down inside. Trapped all my life and scared and nervous. But I cant overcome my inner feelings. They won’t diminish no matter how much I try to set them aside they are always there with me. I hurt and struggle constantly wondering if I am gonna die like this TRAPPED! They grow strong each day every year. I don’t have a clue what the correct steps are or the path my life is taken or why all a I know is the is a true woman inside me waiting to come out and SHINE! I have so much running through my head I can’t sleep and I get anxiety from it. For me it’s not body parts it about being able to express myself ( ok the body parts are a huge bonus) and represent myself for who I truly am and what I have always been. I know it’s never going to go away no matter what I tell myself. I don’t want to die this way!<br style=”box-sizing: border-box; font-family: ‘open sans’; font-size: 13px;” />Thanks for listening. 🤗
- July 7, 2019 at 6:14 am #35394
Welcome to TGH Casey! I was wonderful to chat with you. I can’t relate to the BF part of your journey, but I was 50 when things started to finally move in the right direction for me. I’m always willing to answer questions.
Hugs, Ambassador Cloe
- July 9, 2019 at 3:38 am #35459
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