The importance of grieving

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    Polly Stewart

    Sisters! This is a post I made on CDH which (perhaps unsurprisingly) garnered little attention…
    I thought it important to post this here as it may resonate amongst you , my sisters!

    “I have only today realised how much grieving both my wife an I must do for out lost/dead selves! My wife was in a turmoil today as she hadn’t yet been able to grieve for the she, she lost her after her sub-arachnoid haemorrhage seven years ago… and for the husband she lost to transitioning!
    I, on the other hand, hadn’t realised I’ve yet to grieve for the man I was! That man is dead and out of the ashes of the pyre… came Polly! We all have a lot of grieving to do so it I vitally important to do your due diligence and… GRIEVE!
    After talking to my wife this morning about the lack of acknowledgment I have exhibited towards her grief, I was prompted to write more on this very, very important subject. A subject that we sisters ignore at our peril!
    Have you ever considered that your SOs have a huge fear of losing the ‘man’ she fell in love with? Have you ever considered the idea of grieving for your former selves?
    I am now faced with the stark reality of never being able to go back! My old (and dead) male self has yet to be buried or even acknowledged to be ‘fin’! However, the old ‘I’ is as dead as my fathers ashes I scattered on the hills surrounding Christchurch. It’s just that there has been no funeral yet.
    My wife has pushed aside all of her grieving to look after me in my ‘extremis’ and now it is hugely important for her to recognise and begin to focus on that.
    It’s all very exciting to be a new girl… the dresses, wigs, makeup, shoes (let’s not forget shoes) etc. but where and when do we make time for the grieving for the old self. I think we can get so caught up in our new selves that we tend to forget our old selves and more importantly, our SOs. These women deserve recognition for who they are… women who count! The women that refuse to recognise you as a woman may have their own grieving to do!? It must be a huge shock to them! I have come to recognise that I have been supremely selfish and many of you as well! I do not blame you as I too have been caught in the euphoria we all experience!
    As I have been reflecting these thoughts back to my dear wife… she has come forward to say that, with thought and consideration, all is possible! She has indicated that my translation to woman has saved us in many more ways than I would go into today even if we have our own grieving to go through! We are building a different relationship because of this but a new, healthier and much more vibrant relationship we will have!
    Grieve for the past but… look forward to the future!”

    Love Polly ❤️❤️❤️

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    • #100752

      Letting go of what we find the most dearest to us is one of hardest things for us to do . Without the grieving we get stuck in rut and will be stagnant within our lives .  But once we get past this stage …the future is very bright indeed .





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    • #100645
      Michelle Larsen

      Polly, you are 100% correct in those sentiments. Grieving for a deceased person is a time for both joy and sadness. Joy in the fact that you have been privileged to know them, and in some cases, be close to them. Sadness in the fact that you will have that privilege no more. But joy is the rule of the day for the loss of your previous self during your transition. Joy that the previous version of you provided such a good foundation for the new you to grow on. Michelle

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