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Hi I’m Alex. I’ve been a member here a couple of months but only now feel able to write an introduction. What do you write when you are only a few months into transition?
Like many here I’m 50+ back in my youth trans just wasn’t known about, even being gay was something no-one talked or knew much about. To do so was dangerous…and there was no google! I’m bi to be honest and always felt, looked and acted like a woman. I had no parents growing up so largely built my own world and lived in it. Always been female in emotion and interests, and became a professional artist. I’ve hidden most of the inner me from others in my 6′ 2″ frame…which made it a bit easier. Relationships with women always soured as I became the woman, and not the knight in shining armour they thought. Not a great success those. Always hated my image in the mirror, I avoided photos and seeing myself…as it just isn’t me.
That has changed, since I accepted that I am a woman and started therapy…I’m happy, truly happy…for the first time in my life. Even friends and family say I’m so much better now I’ve stepped out. My sister said, “you’ve always been a woman, everyone knows that.” I had no idea! I was the only one who thought my disguise worked. I love all things female, especially shopping, shoes, clothes, gossip and romance. I cry without embarrassment at films now…at last.
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