How to Create a Grand Playpen in 4 Simple Steps and Stop Being an A.S.S.

Looking back into my childhood, I remember standing in the playpen. In the early 1960’s many of us lived out our days in these little open top cages made of padded framework and mesh netting around the sides. Much like how bunnies or puppies are sold at the pet store. The playpen was our earliest childhood home once we began moving around under our own power.

First the roll over, then the drag, moving onto the crawl and eventually to the vertical upright-ish walking position of the humans, aided perhaps by the ability to hang on to every piece of furniture in the house as we practiced our mobility.

At some point, the playpen becomes unable to contain us and so our new playpen expands to become a room or even the entire floor of the house. We are still totally unconscious creatures at this point believing everything we experience is truth, and care only about our own basic needs; food, sleep, clean-ish clothes and some love.

Next, our playpen expands again as we venture outside the home into a yard space. Stay inside the fence and off the road. We are still mental vacuums sucking up every bit of information we observe; unfiltered all this information is stored it in our head for future survival.

Then, our mind snaps, we become conscious and aware. We learn the word no and begin to practice where and when it might be most effective in meeting our needs. We also learn other ways to get our needs met efficiently.

This is where the train goes off the tracks so to speak. We are not yet independent or even interdependent, no, we are still very much dependent on those bigger people for all, of our basic needs; we are powerless to change our circumstances.

So, we adapt to please the giants and assure our survival on the planet for a while longer. We learn that to adapt is to live longer. And therein lives the lie.

To adapt is to suppress living, in exchange for actual survival or even perceived survival.

In some cases, during my youth, it was indeed active survival as my life was threatened at knife point on more than one occasion.

And finally, we re-rail our train but this time, we are the conductor. We leave the nest and begin the adventures of living or surviving on our own; armed only with the life skills handed down to us from our survival teachers we take on this challenge.

Here are the four simple steps to creating a grand size playpen, not only for yourself, but also for everyone suffering from adaptive survival syndrome. Did you catch that, Adaptive Survival Syndrome? Okay, ASS is not a real disease, I made it up because I suffered from it for most of my life.

Step one: Accept where you are on the journey. Lost, confused, aware? Stuck, terrified, depressed and giving up?

Step two: Accept 100% responsibility for being where you are. This is not blame, only acceptance of being responsible to change your life, will you empower yourself to do so, and permanently.

Step three: Set a small, measurable goal to achieve by a certain date that will expand the size of your play pen.

Make it flexible but really do your best to achieve it. One of my first goals was to open the curtains and answer the door no matter what when I was dressed pretty inside my home. It took a few months to muster the courage to just swing the door open wide and smile through my lipstick at whomever was there.

Next, I set a goal to go outside dressed pretty, on my own property; like, to the edges of the property. This in my case is a whole small-town block. Then, off my property to the post office, which is across the road. The first efforts to accomplish this quest were made well after dark. Then in daylight on a weekend when it was closed; going during the day and risking being seen by strangers was enough of a stretch at the time.

To now, I will go collect the mail whenever I please with zero fear! I am as loose as ashes inside. I travel to new cities with confidence and certainty and most recently, across the border into another province.

I wander about as if I am normal. Why, because I Am Natural; normal holds no weight for me any longer.

Step four: own each stage, set a new quest, or goal and grow into it until it is mostly comfortable. Rinse and repeat.

Once I become comfortable at a particular level, I challenge myself to expand a little further. From the curtains opening to the door open, to the open yard, then post office and so on. Always in safety.

Then one day, I glanced back and said wholly crisp! Look how far I have come? Look at how much more authentic I am now and how much more of my life I am “actively living” and not just surviving.

My wish and vision is, that each of you whom still struggle and even still suffer on this path, will one day feel the certainty, freedom, inner peace and calm confidence I now experience from practicing the four steps above.

I love who I present my self to be, I love who I am, and I love my life in such a greater percentage than ever before, and it keeps getting better as I practice creating a grand playpen.

Thank you so much for reading Your Weekly Reset my Amazing Sisters.

Message me with a topic, subject or question you would love to see chatted about on The Live Sessions with Sophie and Char and thank you for being exactly who you are!


  1. Bri Sudbury 3 weeks ago

    Thank you Char,
    I have experienced every one of the things you wrote about. Just being a member of this site was a big step for me. And everyday I continue on this journey. And everyday it gets easier and more comfortable and I become more confident in myself thanks to the stories of those who have walked this path before me. I still suffer from depression and anxiety sometimes more then others. But I still wake up everyday knowing that I am becoming the woman that I was meant to be. Luvs Your Sister Bri

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      Charee 2 weeks ago

      Hey Bri, yup it sure seems like many of us experience the anxiety and depression on a more frequent scale than some; I have those moments too but the beautiful thing is that as I have learned and practice these little life skills those moments are only that now, moments, where as in the past I would have long periods of deep depression and I would entertain suicidal thoughts sometimes for days.

      (But I still wake up everyday knowing that I am becoming the woman that I was meant to be. Luvs Your Sister Bri)

      … and THAT is the single most important thing to “know” Bri.
      Embracing what has been trying to emerge from within you all this time, and supporting Bri’s expansion will strengthen you beyond depression and anxiety in time 😉

      You are an inspiration Dear, for many!
      Thankyou for being my sister, what an honor Hon
      n Huggles Bri

  2. Reading this article really helped me to see that I am really not alone, and that so many of us are going through the same struggles. Coming out for the 2nd time has really helped me to start living more authentically, already seeing g massive changes in myself gradually as I go day by day.

    Thank you Char, for an encouraging and very inspiring article.

    Best wishes,

    Asher-Levi. 🙂

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      Charee 2 weeks ago

      Awe thank you Ashleigh, for being beautiful you and being “out” again!!

      Hold your head up girl, shoulders back, chin up and wear a big grin on your face dear hehehe.

      We do not need to ask permission and we do not need to justify our presence on this earthly journey, all we have to do dear, is keep showing up day after day, and one day, we will be as commonly seen among the people as every other “normal” person 😉 because we Are normal Hon.

      Thanks for being seen Ashleigh, I am grateful for you dear, yup yup yup.
      Namaste’ and warm huggles for you sister.

      Get out n stay out hahaha

      • Am ftm transgender, aha, just I haven’t recieved my legal name change yet (deed poll doc) from the post. Sorry for the confusion lol, I prefer male pronouns if you dont mind 🙂

        Thank you for them encouraging words and huggles Charee! 🙂


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          Charee 2 weeks ago

          Hahahaha sorrry dude haha these thumbnails are pretty tiny hahaha

          ooooh I see it now, Asher-Levi, coool I like that hahaha n sorry bout the confusion oops my bad hehe
          Yeah, we’re anything but alone in this adventure hahaha The more I amj public the more people outside the binary meet, there’s a LOT of us on this little blue marble hahaha
          .and thanks for taking good care of you and giving me the nudge hehe I am grateful bud 😉
          n huggles for ya

  3. SophieFR 3 weeks ago

    Hi Char,

    Another of your useful and practical articles, congratulations!

    After our Live Sessions the other day I find myself wondering about the term ‘Own It’ and if it conveys clearly what we mean, or maybe I’m overthinking it here?
    So, I offer a sideways look at it, just in case my feelings are founded.

    By, ‘Owning it’ I see that what we are suggesting is, that we are embracing something totally. To breath it, sleep it and wake up in the next morning wearing it.

    It is who and what we have become by deliberate and conscious action, that has resulted through an ability to fully accept whatever it is the we wish/need to apply to ourselves to become, that we desire.


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      Charee 2 weeks ago

      Yup, that’s right dear, I awoke this morning owning what has been trying to emerge from within me since I can remember.

      I have spent most of my life trying to repress, deny, ignore and hide this aspect of my being.

      Now, I embrace, support, nurture and most importantly practice the life skill of genuine Self Love; that’s owning it to me 🙂

      What a pleasure it is to be here dear and be seen

      Namaste’ n big huggles for you Hon

  4. Carly Holloway 4 weeks ago

    Great article, Char. It is wondrous to me that the more I love and accept myself as I am, the easier my life becomes; the more joy filled my life is. gaining that self acceptance and love is often no easy task. but when we gain it, the future, present and past are all so different in perspective. Fear and anxiousness are gone. laughter and smiles come naturally and often. An addict friend once told me “My worst day sober is a thousand times better than the best day high”. and so it seems with my life. My best days before don’t compare with any day now. Thank you for you positive outlook and beautiful self.


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      Charee 4 weeks ago

      Awe Thaaankyou Carly, And thank you for being present and commenting in todays live sessions with Sophie and I! Yaaaay!!

      It really makes such a huge difference in every aspect of how I experience life.

      From once being dark, twisty and suicidal to dancing, feeling pretty and feeing grateful and all I had to do was learn how to stop resisting and repressing what was emerging from within, and start supporting and loving it, because it, is me 🙂 genuine, natural and authentic.
      I could never go back to living that lonely, desperate and victimy state; the truth has definitely set me free and now I’m practicing hahaha

      Thanks Carly, I’m looking forward to our next chats dear 😉
      until then
      n huggles Hon

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