Hello Girls, my name is Paige and although it’s been a while since I’ve last written an article I’m back now and would like to share so many things with all the girls here.
Remember that we are all here for the same reason, that this is an amazing place that Vanessa has created for each and everyone of us to feel comfortable and safe.
I know most of you here are probably afraid to come out to family and friends but once you do, you won’t have to worry about hiding your true identity anymore.
The point of no return is that once you pass the point of no return it’s easier to continue forward rather than go backwards. I live as a female and it’s the most amazing feeling in the world. It’s not the outside that matters, but you have to believe in your heart and soul that you are a woman. I’ve spent years hiding but not anymore, it’s such a wonderful feeling that people see you as a female and call you pronouns like miss or mam and using the ladies room in public without anyone correcting you.
The COVID 19 is a blessing in disguise to cross dressers or trans girls because your face is half covered so with a little eye makeup no one can really tell.
Let me tell you a true story that happened to me yesterday. I usually don’t wear much makeup when I have to just go out to run errands or shopping, but yesterday I wore makeup and let my hair down instead of wearing it up. Anyway, I had gone to the drive thru of my local bank to make a withdrawal and was refused because they said I wasn’t who I was ? They asked me to park and come inside so they could look at me to see if I was a male or female. I told them point blank that I was a transgender woman and that I would answer any questions to make them happy. I gave them answers to three security questions and told them the last four or five transactions, I even opened up my bank app in front of them and to open it you needed fingerprints and a Face ID, they wouldn’t give me the money. After waiting for about an hour with the manager, I was told to bring more proof, so I drove back home to get my birth certificate. They finally understood that I was transgender now and no longer living as a male but as a female full time. To tell you the truth I wasn’t embarrassed and they actually made me feel good inside, because I knew that they saw me as a female and were in disbelief that I looked so real, they apologized and told me that I was very pretty.
It’s not what’s between your legs that makes you female it’s what’s between your ears. If you believe in your heart that your a woman that’s all that matters.
You have to blend in and not over do dressing in public, study genetic females how they dress, act, walk, talk and feel confident.
It took me years to come out to family and friends, some accepted me and some didn’t, but I live life for me and that’s what matters.
I think one advantage that I have is I’m very petite and thin, I’m only 4’11 and weigh about 118 pounds. I also have natural long hair, almost to my waist, to me having long hair is what makes me feel even more feminine. It’s so nice going out shopping at girls boutiques with not one person looking at you thinking that’s a man, it’s an amazing feeling that words can’t explain.
Right now I’m going though something – getting ready to lose my mother who is in a hospice dying of cancer throughout her entire body; it’s heart breaking for me, because once she passes and probably before thanksgiving, I will be alone in the world with no family. I know I have friends here and that touches my heart to know that.
The hair salon I go to twice a month knows I’m transgender but treat me like a female, as a matter of fact the girl who styles my hair said we should hang out sometime, telling me I was very attractive, but she said if we go out as girlfriends try not to look better than me and she made me laugh.
Thank you so much Vanessa creating this amazing site for us to be ourselves, I hope everyone here finds the right path to follow on their journey whether they are married or not please, don’t hide your true self, they will either accept you or not but in the end it’s worth it.
May God bless each and everyone of you, stay safe and well, hopefully one day society will accept us, after all gays and lesbians are accepted so transgender girls should be too.
Love and Happiness, Paige xoxoTags: feminine traits gender identity personal journey