Hi my name is Salem Jade Sena and I don't know where to start other than I know I'm a woman in a males body I've been battling with myself for years, wondering if I am just possessed by a spirit of a woman I know I don't have a mental illness. I don't see my self as a cross dresser because It's a issue of what my body looks like without clothes. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up and have a female body, but i can't talk about this to family or people I know because of judgement such as God doesn't make mistakes and all the rest the judgments such as I'm going to hell so I spend most my days alone I don't have any transgender friends other than a few online I have joined a couple of online dating sites trying to make friends and everyone I have met are hundreds of miles away I'm attracted to strait men I want to be treated like a woman, the only men I have been with have been gay and they have treated me as a gay man they don't want a woman. So I haven't been in a relationship in a long time I'm tired of living my life alone and unhappy. Now I'm joining this group I'm reaching out and have someone to talk to for the past year I have been using herbal supplements for HRT I'm afraid to talk to a doctor about MTF HRT because they my think I'm mentally ill or get more judgement