I have recently revealed myself to my wife, and she is very accepting of my dressing and being partly female. Let me explain. I have always felt since a very young age that I was female on the inside, yet live in a male body. I realized this when I was 4 or 5 years old. I enjoyed playing with dolls, playing house, having tea with my stuffed animals and playing with the girls. I enjoyed it ever so much more than play sports with the boys or even hanging with them. I really felt comfortable just hanging with the girls, but then I was never really being accepted by them either. I tried to talk to my mother and sister about it growing up and was made fun of and ridiculed in front of family and friends because of my feeling and the times they had caught me cross dressing. So I guess you could say the late 60’s and 1970’s weren’t the best of times. But even though I had been cross dressing for years I did fall in love with my present day wife. We have been together now for over 45 years. I had hidden away Lisa from her all this time. She knew I like panties and stocking just for play time. No idea I was underdressing at times. Yada Yada…most know this story. Since about the time we were married I had given up on the idea of ever let the genie out of the bottle. Just kept Lisa deep inside of me. But as time went on the secret was getting more difficult to keep to myself. I needed support someone to talk to and with. I knew family was out and I had tried talking to therapist once when I was getting treated for cancer about my feeling, but that lasted 1 minute before he changed the subject. It was becoming a huge monkey on my back. 2 years ago I found CDH. Just being able to communicate with others like me and some others that weren’t. Over all it was a huge help in my mental health. Lots of conversations and articles on file convinced me I needed to let Lisa out. Not just to release that monkey as much as my wife deserved the truth about her husband. I was tired of hiding, mentally I couldn’t take it any longer So about mid September 2023, an opportunity came up and I told my wife about my dilemma, and how I have always had a deep feeling inside of myself of femininity. More so than masculinity. That after years of growing up I had accepted the male role and embraced my manhood. Pushing my femininity deep down inside of me. But now I knew and I could reveal who I was deep down inside. Yes, I was afraid of rejection, embarrassing her and her family, disappointing our daughters. Many had talked about after telling their spouses that they were now divorced. This was a huge step for me to take as I knew it would change lives, and did I want to do that. It did change everything for the better. My wife felt my pain and understands what I have been going through all these years. Repressing who I was and wanting to be. It also explained a lot to her about why I had been moody and depressed. We talked for a good three days about Lisa. And when all was said and done she said to me; “I now have my husband back, his 100% back. I’m so happy I have my best friend, my husband and now a new girlfriend!” Wow, I was a lucky one that I have a wife that understands me and how I feel and she doesn’t mine at all. I asked her to give me a new name, Lisa was a name I used when hiding, I needed a new name to announce my ‘femdom’ with, she named me Mia, Lisa was no more. Their is so much more to this then I have written so far, but this is the main part. I have recently down even more research and studies that seems to say that I’m and in the trans categories. I’m still trying to place me correctly so for now I just consider myself as a transgender person.