Questions about life

Hi, girlfriends.  Let me tell you that I am an avid reader.  I enjoy histories, biographies, professional works, and science fiction.  I read a sci-fi story years ago by Robert Heinlein, with assistance from Spider Robi so  post mortem.  The book is titled Variable Star.  The story struck a loud chord in me.  Without violating copyrights, I want to explain what impacted me so.

As in most good adventures, the protagonist faced many crises.  This character had to face several hard questions in the course of the book.

1.  WHO ARE YOU?   Exactly Who am I in the comfort of my own home, late at night, with no one around.  Not my name, or what I do, or who I know.   Who am I when there is no audience, no task, no expectation, nobody to impress?  (Let’s face it, girls, when we’re observable, we play a role… parent, spouse, sibling, child, boss, etc.)  Who is this person when I have no role to play.  Hmmmm!  I’m not sure I know.

2.  HOW DID YOU GET HERE?  What influences and forces have contributed to who I am.  Not only what have I learned, but also ‘how the heck did I learn it?’.  What has driven me to do the things I have done? What fertilizer helped me grow?  What poisons withered my flowers?  This might be the easiest question for me to answer.

3.  WHERE ARE YOU GOING?  What are my goals?  My desires?  My life destination?  How do I want my life to be next month, or next year, or in 10 years.  What exactly do I want for my life?  What is my purpose in this world?  Damn!  I have to admit that I don’t have a clear answer for myself.

4.  WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO GET THERE?  Am I in charge of my life, or am I just drifting through this life waiting to see what happens?  Am I really that passive and docile?  How can I bring about my destination… wander blindfolded, or consult the map for direction?  What will I do when I’m there?  Double Damn!  Sometimes I don’t know WTF I’m doing.

5.  HOW IS IT WORKING OUT FOR YOU?  Do my actions contribute to my aims, or am I sabotaging myself.  Am I on course?  Do I need to make corrections?  Am I making progress? I hope so, but I’m not sure.

These questions have never gone away since I read them.  I am way to eger to know the full answers.  I get impatient and frustrated when I can’t be  clear to mysef.  Yet, the search for answers has been more than rewarding.  It has also been painful.

I find these questions extremely important, especially in light of my transgender journey.  Each of them strike me to the core.  Each of them promise  and deliver incredible personal growth and insight I to this woman called Carly.  Powerful enough to compel me to share them with you.

I love you all, and wish you peace, love and health in abundance.



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I started a brand new life and life style a little more that a year ago. I think I have had a wonderful time on this adventure, and I really look forward to the rest of the ride. After a lifetime of hiding, I am finally doing what I needed to do years and years ago. TGH has been integral in helping me stay balanced and healthy during this time. I am thankful and grateful to the guy that was here before me. He taught me so much that I needed to know to be able to do this with confidence. He will never be a "dead self": He will be cherished and praised for what he gqve me and prepared me to do. I hope to be able to share my life and my experiences during this adventure, and maybe even make some lifelong friends and be an encouragement or a support for other women on this journey. I wish you all the best love, peace and satisfaction you so well deserve. Carly

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Kelly (@spectrumvoyager)
10 months ago

Answering questions like that requires courage of the heart. Courage like that requires a soul mindful of itself. A mindful soul longs for answers.

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