Meet Your Transgender Heaven Ambassadors

Captain Dionysus

Codille Benton

Jasmine

Hello Ladies and Gentlemen,
I am a pre-transition transgender woman. Though I don't really like labels, if that's what it has to be, so be it. If you are thinking how did I become Managing Ambassador of Transgender Heaven, then I would have to say, I willed my way here. Just kidding, Vanessa asked me to. I am also a AMA at Crossdresser Heaven. I love my crossdressing sisters, but there is a time when CDH just is not enough support. Yes, there are many forums dedicated to people like me but, it just doesn't reach across the spectrum of what it is to live a transgender life. There are voices out there in the world that need to be heard. Maybe it is yours, or maybe it is someone who is afraid to speak their mind, or thinks its a waste of time and to much of a waste of time to argue with those who have no clue what is like to be transgender. So that is what I want to do for you, I want to hear from you, I want you to feel comfortable enough to know what you have to say is important.

That is why we are here, to grow in strength and numbers and be heard as one. We are part of a community that many would just like to ignore, but that is not going to happen. We deserve to be able to live a life of happiness and be accepted for who we are!

Welcome to Transgender Heaven everyone, if you allow me to guide you through the darkness we can make it to the brighter side of life together.

Maria Darlov

I have recently met the love of my life, a best friend and a soulmate, all rolled into one very beautiful woman. She knows about "Maria" and is OK with it. We plan on being married this summer (2019) with a beach wedding as we both love the beach.

I love all types of music, country, rock, heavy metal, 80's hair bands, jazz, pop, even some rap. But my favorite is Blues.

Michelle Liefde

Hey there, I am Michelle! As an Ambassador to both TGH and CDH, I want to welcome all to this wonderful site! I am still learning who I am and hope to be able to give support to our community.

Miss Cloé

Not quite full on southern girl who loves being classy and is spiritual, but knows how to have fun of which being sassy with a heart is part. I really love interacting with people and deeply care for everyone on the trans spectrum. I began living my authentic life full time June, 8 2018 and as of late 2020 am finally able to explore the surgical phase of my journey. I'm a WV Hillbillie through and through, but find myself a stranger in a strange land just doing my best to be me.

Rhonda Roe...

Sabrina MacTavish

I've been on this path for nearly 50 years, beginning at age 7 when I wore my grandma's old dresses with my cousins. It felt natural. Later, I went through the fetish stage and fought with my insides. After my divorce 13 years ago, I let Brina out only to bury her away during another relationship.

Over the last 6 years, I've found out more about who I am, the path that I'm on, and what it means to be transgendered. I've also been much happier since I acknowledged and accepted myself for who I am. I'm still much in the closet as responsibilities take precedence. It doesn't help being an introvert by nature, but I will gracefully walk (mostly, ok, not so gracefully) this path as I become a better me.

SophieFR

Born in London, England and a life long journey incorporating two marriages and a long relationship that eventually brought me to France.
My two children and all of my family are fine with my choice to finally be the person I have always been.
I am a creative, artistic soul who loves good food,cooking and real friends.
Will I ever fall in love, will someone fall in love with me and does it matter?
I have the love of my family and some very good friends in my life

Vanessa Law

I’m passionate about creating a safe space for everyone in the transgender community to find laughter and friendship on their journey. I completed my physical transition in 2011 and through it I lost everything, and gained everything. I am blessed that I was forced to gaze inward and embark on the journey to discover and live my authentic self. My deepest wish is that all who wander here may find peace, happiness and freedom.

April King

I am finally exploring transitioning or at least being able to express my gender freely after years of thinking about it. I have been crossdressing since about the age of 7, and took a 30+ year hiatus from dressing while I was busy raising my family. I started dressing again a few years ago, and lately I have realized that I am TG, not simply someone who likes to crossdress. I finally like who I am, and though I am moving closer and closer to who I want to be, I'm not quite sure who that is yet. I recently started dressing almost every day, and it is interesting, but the more I explore my female self and the closer I get to moving ahead with transitioning the more relaxed my style gets. I'm still a bit of a perfectionist though, and love going “all out” when the time calls for it. I'm just finally at peace with who I am and can't wait to keep moving forward.

Charee

From a life of struggle, addiction and suicide attempts, to Published Author, Certified Life Coach/Certified Hypnotist and building an online support service for peeps like us.

Intentionally and Consciously Creating a Rewarding, Abundant Life of Purpose, Passion & Possibility is what I Am all about...

Melissa Summers

I identify as a woman, first recognizing that I was more girl than boy, more daughter than son and more sister than brother before I started elementary school. For all of the same reasons that many others in my generation chose to bury those realizations -- mostly out of fear and ignorance -- I accepted roles and responsibilities, did what I was expected to do, and focused on external distractions that only temporarily salved the internal pain of living a lie.

Although the road that I have taken is a familiar one to many of us, the stops along the way are unique to me. I have started writing my story about that journey, which has been incredibly therapeutic to me. Today, I fully embrace my womanhood, though the process of getting to that point has opened my eyes to the breadth of gender identity and how it evolves in each of our lives.

Marianne

Hello all!

I am Marianne, I am originally from Mexico, and now residing in the US. I am a "Transbian" i.e.: a Transgeder Woman married to a Cis Woman.

I started my transition back in 2008 and HRT in 2010, so this year marks my 10th anniversary! Don’t time flies when you’re having “fun”?

I have been in several groups and only now I have taken with me the responsibility to stop being in the backstage and become more active. My life has been a total rollercoaster with many moments that makes me wonder how it may have been if I only had someone to talk to and trust. Many of the wrong turns I took may have been averted.

I hope that by me being here I can make a positive mark and pass forward all the goodness that I have received in the past, and help others to succeed in their own paths.

This is the last “I” that will be used and let’s start talking about “you” and “us” and make this place a Heaven, because, as Korg said (Thor Ragnarok) “As long as the foundations are still strong, we can rebuild this place. It will become a haven for all peoples and aliens of the universe.”

Love you all and welcome to TGH! Hope to catch up with you in the chat, forums and groups, and if you happen to see me around, don’t be shy, I was and lost a lot of good opportunities already

I may be MIA when big things happen in my small world, such as Jewish Holidays or lots of work. I will be around, sometimes it may take a little more than "a couple of days" but I will always be back

Love,

Marianne

Bethie Skyhawk

Ten-year transitioned tomboy. Very into simulated flying.

Dawn J

I posted this on CDH, too, about two years ago, but I'll try to give you the updated & abridged version.

I'm sure we all have very similar stories, but yes, I’m a happy girl when I’m me. I am Dawn. That guy is just some other person inhabiting my body. I feel uncomfortable when I have to be him & pretend to be male. I’ve been crossdressing since I was about 11 or 12. Until a few years ago, I always felt like I enjoyed it– but wished I didn’t. I've always felt that the impetus that really awakened the desire in me, was a magazine article. I happened to find it in a closet (How appropriate). Naturally, I curiously combed the pages, perhaps, hoping to find pictures of naked women. But I came across an article entitled, “My Husband Became a Woman”. Suddenly, I wanted to see how it felt to be a girl & started trying on things that belonged to my mom & sister. It felt so good & actually excited me, sexually.

I’m pretty sure that my mom knew about it. She once caught me, trying on a pair of my granny’s shoes & I’m sure that she could tell that someone had been into her clothes– especially when I accidentally got lipstick on a white sundress & didn’t have time to clean it. And there was a time when my best friend asked me if I had mascara on (Apparently, I hadn’t done a good job of washing it off.) I told him, “No, I was taking a nap.” I don’t think he bought it.

I wasn’t gay. I liked girls & had several girlfriends throughout high school. I was in the closet, but when I was with the girls, crossdressing never crossed (pun unintended) my mind. Also, never really thought about it while in the Armed Forces for a few years. But it all came back when my wife & I were dating & we went to a friend’s Halloween Party as the opposite sexes. Shortly after we got married, I played a trick on her, one morning, as we were getting ready for work. She had her clothes laid out for the day. While she was showering, I put her bra on under my shirt. She couldn’t figure out where she had put it. I wanted to see how long it would take her to find it. Again, it felt good.

The following year, I admitted to her that I enjoyed it & asked her if she’d mind. She said OK. It wasn't often, but I got a little carried away, one weekend, and pierced my own ears. No one said anything about it at work, but I’m sure the holes were noticeable. Then, we threw our own Halloween party. You guessed it. She was a butler. I was a French maid.

Our oldest kids are girls. I still occasionally “dressed up” when they were young-- & asleep, but when the boys came along, I purged what little clothing I had.

Once the boys grew up & moved out, I found myself wearing some of my wife’s clothes. And, over the years, she has occasionally let me wear lingerie to bed. Our foreplay involves her doing things to me that would normally be done to a woman. She’s not gay either, although I have daydreamed about what it would be like to have lesbian sex with her. That said, crossdressing didn’t seem to sexually stimulate me like it once did. Instead, it gave me more of a feeling of joy & satisfaction– like this felt right & it’s who I should be.

I'm really opening up, here, and it is quite liberating to do so. Thank goodness that I found Transgender Heaven. I never really thought that the term applied to me, but in the past two years, I've done a lot of introspection and, although my therapist hasn't confirmed it (because I haven't seen her in a while), I've concluded that I am transgendered according to definitions I've seen. I’ve been involved with a couple of different crossdressing groups which have helped me find who I am & to admit to myself that I am transgendered. I was a bit apprehensive about joining TGH, initially, and remained somewhat guarded about posting, but the more time I'm here & spend as me, the more I know I'm where I belong. I enjoy the replies I get from my “sisters”. There’s acceptance & encouragement here. Five years ago, I would have never thought that I could be this open about “my little secret”.

I want to transition, but I have two major obstacles-- money & my wife. She says she would leave me if I did. I couldn’t do that to her. She didn’t “sign up for this”. She’s the best thing that ever happened to me.

I’m spending more time as myself, but I have to be careful not to upset my wife. We've had some pretty deep conversations. She’s accepting that I am a part of her husband; that he needs me. My wife even says that, when I'm me, I seem to be more productive around the house & assist her with “womanly” chores, but she’s worried that maybe she shouldn’t be encouraging me.

Maybe she’s right. When I look in the mirror at my male self, I'm not happy with that old man looking back at me. But, as myself, I’m very happy with the way I’m looking. Very depressing to go back to male mode. I easily “pass” in public-- as a woman 20 years younger than my true age. I look & feel younger when I’m me. When I exercise, for some reason, I feel stronger & more energetic as myself. Many people, who have seen pictures of me or seen me at one of those Halloween parties, say that I look better as a woman than I do as a man. I have to agree.

My wife even says that I've improved much with my voice. We've had some “Girls Days Out”, going shopping, having lunch & getting manicures & pedicures.

Sometimes, I get frustrated with my job & other things in my life, but I find crossdressing therapeutic. Put me in a dress and it completely lightens my mood. My depression used to be worse & sometimes incapacitating. Looking back, perhaps subconsciously, I was down because I couldn’t be a woman or, at least, look like one.

Is this what’s missing in my life? I’m worried that I'm getting too old to transition. But I don't want to live my whole life, not realizing my dream & not being who I think I was meant to be. How sad would that be? I think my wife realizes that & that’s why she’s reluctantly giving me the “green light” on crossdressing– so I can enjoy the next best thing to being a woman while I can.

Life’s short. Be gorgeous!

DeeAnn Hopings

Mechanical Engineer, retired January 2016 and relocated to SoCal. Have a grown daughter and a grown son with my 1st wife, daughter has 2 daughters. Married 2nd wife in 2005 and she knows everything about me. Vast majority of people here in town know me as DeeAnn, but I do present as my male persona sometimes when I am running an errand and don’t want to take the time to get dressed and do makeup.

Since I’ve retired, I’ve been a board member of our local trans organization and on the steering committee for our local HRC group. I did both of those for over 2 years, but am now resigned from both. Currently I’m the Volunteer Coordinator for the Greater Palm Springs Pride organization. Also Community Liaison Officer with Great Auto of Yesteryear car club, a Commissioner with the Cathedral City Public Arts Commission and a Steering Committee Member for Desert Stonewall Democrats.

Hobbies:

BIG motorsports fan, been to all sorts of tracks all across the US, primarily a fan of open wheel race cars (Formula 1, Indy cars, supermodifieds, Silver Crown, sprint cars, etc.) but I also follow sports cars, stock cars and drag racing, have driven a few race cars, used to help a friend take care if his pavement modified, have many motorsports related books and many have been autographed by Indy car winners, Indianapolis 500 winners, Formula 1 winners and World Driving Champions, and Formula 1 team principals

Was a cyclist until a mild stroke in the Fall of 2016, looking to get back on the bike soon, also follow professional cycling

Architecture fan, love the work of Frank Lloyd Wright and other architects who did a lot of work here in The Valley under the Mid Century Modern style, visited 2 FLW homes in the San Francisco area in the summer of 2019 that had not been open to the public before, have toured the Robie House, Taliesin West, the now defunct FLW Museum outside of Ann Arbor, MI and FLW structures in Oak Park, IL.

Amateur photographer going back to high school with Polaroids and 620 roll film, 35mm film cameras since the 80’s and digital since 2005.

Computer hobbyist, built a Hackintosh a few years back that serves as my desktop computer.

Marianne Tornander

How do you envision an Ice princess of the snowy Scandinavia? Mouse haired, short sighted and slightly overweight? Hey, at least my eyes are blue!

Though still retaining a male body and presenting male most of the time, Marianne is merely a woman in mind, heart and soul and has been increasingly so since the age of six. I am married since 1995 and have three sons born 2000, 2002 and 2004. I was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease in 2012 which made me reevaluate much of my life and in 2014 I so started going out in public as my femme self. I am now confidently presenting as both male and female in most contexts without noticeable problems. Most people in my daily life are aware of my duality but only my wife has expressed clear objections to have Marianne around.

Since late September 2019 I am on the waiting list for a gender identity evaluation and possible transition to female at the Anova clinic in Stockholm. Once I start seing a therapist, I hope to slowly figure out what I need to do to feel good about myself and my body and hopefully get help with at least some procedures to make my presentation as a woman easier and more genuine.

Rachel J Rose

Samantha G.

Sheryl Johnstone

65 years old, married 43 years to a beautiful supportive woman. Started HRT at 64, finally seeing the breasts growing that I wanted 50+ years ago.
I am out to all of our children and grandchildren, many of our friends and 100+ members of the work group I was part of for 30 years before retiring 3 years ago.

Tessa Cee

Just a trans woman trying to make it through my day!

Gräfin Aija Pince

60+ plus, but now living! Love cooking, classical music and arts.

Cynthia S

Crossdressed since age 11 til age 53 as of 2018. Joined Crossdresser Heaven in August 2015. Since then I have been exploring my feelings and trying to determine what my best path is -staying CD and just getting out more often and openly as i have been recently; social transitioning outside work; or actually transitioning full time; just not certain what's right for me.

Frankie

I'm a transgender woman in transition, almost 3 yrs into hrt now, looking forward to the day I can come out socially

Gina Angelo

Freshly minted CD, but now realize I am better described as a Two Spirit. Finally free to be me and find my inner peace. A professional with two personalities and sexualities

Joanna Keller

65 y.o. trans MTF, live as much as I can as a woman, except at work, always in feminine clothes one way or another, looking forward to living as a woman 24/7 in Nov when I retire. Lov meeting people that are open and accepting of everyone. I go out in public dressed and lov skirts, stiletto heels and dining out, wines, dancing and sharing life experiences with others.

MacKenzie Alexandra

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Margaux

Ms. Catherine Anne Vos

I'm a 60 year old M2F transgender woman. I have beenon full HRT for nearly 4 years and 5 months.I have been part of TGH for a while now as well as on CDH to widen my horizon in the CD/Trans community. I have been battling my feelings of being something else since early childhood. Constantly subjected to abuse and worse. Growing up in a poor family wasn't easy so I found myself hiding in the closet until about age 56. I was married twice with my second being " A trip to Hell". When mysecond ex left me, I came out and decided it's time to rebirth myself into what I am today. I am a christian and my biggest struggle becoming me, was that I was scared of not beingable to keep being a christian. When I had that sorted out, I became the happiest trans woman in the world I think. After a stint in a mental clinic for severe depression and suicide intentions, I got to meet wonderful people on my road to recovery. I am now part of a local Suicide Prevention Support Group in my community and I'm just happy to be myself at last.

Stacy Ann May

Hi. I'm Stacy Ann. I re-started actively trying to accept this about myself May 2019, after many failed attempts in the past. I've known that I've always wanted to be a woman, but denied and repressed it for most of my life.

I don't know if I will ever get to the point where I will have hormone treatment or full gender confirmation surgery. In all honesty it might not happen. I hope to continue mentally transitioning, make peace with it, and accept being transgender. With luck, I will also be able to successfully socially transition - go out, meet and know people as myself.

Terri Anne

Have been a crossdresser since age 13. I have since been closeted until 2016. Now I am fulltime CD. My journey has left me at times wanting to be more. I am trying to work this out and decide if I will consider myself a truly transgender.